“C-a-t. Cat“ That was one of the first words I ever learned to spell all the way back in kindergarten when I was too afraid to say a single word to anyone. It was fascinating and relieving to be able to express myself on a sheet of paper, because that way I didn’t have to worry about talking at all. I could just write it down instead.
Every day we would learn a new word and I was able to write new sentences and stories using it, twisting it around and rearranging it in different ways. The simple conjunction of the letters of the alphabet allowed me to write whatever came to my mind. It was like an everlasting chain of my imagination flowing onto a blank canvas for everyone to read.
On my parents’ birthdays, I would draw them pictures and underneath I’d write them a little story to go with it. It was so much fun that I would write every sentence in a different color and decorate my titles for hours.
Over the course of many years, after writing hundreds of book reports, and history reports, I began to see writing as something dull and annoying. I was sick of writing summaries of the stories I had read, or writing about species of trees, it was tiring and it was useless. Writing reports became obstacles with deadlines, that I always left for the absolute last minute to just crank something out and put it on paper; quantity seemed to be more important than quality at the time.
I am happy to say that today I have grown to like writing papers, but only essays on relatively liberal topics. It may be a little picky, but it’s what I enjoy doing. Writing allows me to express myself and my opinions on certain subjects rather than just listing various facts and numbers about some historic figure, spread out into a 5 page report. When I get to express myself through writing it always feels like a piece of the shy little kindergartner that I was is still a part of me, invisible, but still present in thought.
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Saturday, March 14, 2009
“It is better to reign in hell, than to serve in Heaven”
In a world of gossip, torture, popularity, vanity, and lies, is it better to be the ruler of superficiality, or to be one of the many solemn outcasts?
In this world we see both, heaven and hell come together under one roof and one name.Highschool.
It comes down to one person, or anyone really to believe that once entering the place you most dread, yet love, that it is in fact better to reign in hell than it is to serve in heaven.
In this case hell would be the “queen bee”, while heaven would be the simple “drones”, not having to worry about their throne being replaced.
The less admired don’t have the need to always strive for perfection. They don’t have to stress over how they look or act because they aren’t exactly role models and usually go unnoticed. You may think that it would be an ideal life, since, as long as you don’t oppose the overruling power; you really don’t have to worry about anything. But all these are just servants near the very bottom of the hierarchy. All they do is look up to others who are only people just the same. So, while leading relatively peaceful and quite satisfactory lives, the “drones”, do not have the same privileges as those who they look up to.
The absolute leader and all her royal subjects have it best, at least under the fake fluorescent lights and in the eyes of those who are part of it. To worry about one’s name, financial and social standing, deep dark secrets, style, and outer shell, doesn’t cast a shadow over being the one who everyone wants to be like. It is only a slight personal drawback which is, with slight difficulty, hidden from the rest. Aside from that you still have the power over almost everyone and don’t have to try and be nice about how you act. The world is a harsh place and the ability to become the “queen” of a small society is hard to achieve, which gives the complete right to anyone in that position, to be as nasty as they please. And unless another “royal” ruins her reputation, all hail her majesty, the Queen.
It doesn’t matter how nice you are or who you are trying to be. The best thing is to always strive to be the best at everything, even if it means ruling on the dark side, rather than being just another servant on the good. It might be satisfying to know you are doing something good, or rather nothing wrong, but when you look at it from the side lines you are just another person amongst the crowd. That is, if you want to stand out from the rest, what could be better than to just rule over them all while you’re at it. And if it means being looked upon as the “bad side”, so be it.
In this world we see both, heaven and hell come together under one roof and one name.Highschool.
It comes down to one person, or anyone really to believe that once entering the place you most dread, yet love, that it is in fact better to reign in hell than it is to serve in heaven.
In this case hell would be the “queen bee”, while heaven would be the simple “drones”, not having to worry about their throne being replaced.
The less admired don’t have the need to always strive for perfection. They don’t have to stress over how they look or act because they aren’t exactly role models and usually go unnoticed. You may think that it would be an ideal life, since, as long as you don’t oppose the overruling power; you really don’t have to worry about anything. But all these are just servants near the very bottom of the hierarchy. All they do is look up to others who are only people just the same. So, while leading relatively peaceful and quite satisfactory lives, the “drones”, do not have the same privileges as those who they look up to.
The absolute leader and all her royal subjects have it best, at least under the fake fluorescent lights and in the eyes of those who are part of it. To worry about one’s name, financial and social standing, deep dark secrets, style, and outer shell, doesn’t cast a shadow over being the one who everyone wants to be like. It is only a slight personal drawback which is, with slight difficulty, hidden from the rest. Aside from that you still have the power over almost everyone and don’t have to try and be nice about how you act. The world is a harsh place and the ability to become the “queen” of a small society is hard to achieve, which gives the complete right to anyone in that position, to be as nasty as they please. And unless another “royal” ruins her reputation, all hail her majesty, the Queen.
It doesn’t matter how nice you are or who you are trying to be. The best thing is to always strive to be the best at everything, even if it means ruling on the dark side, rather than being just another servant on the good. It might be satisfying to know you are doing something good, or rather nothing wrong, but when you look at it from the side lines you are just another person amongst the crowd. That is, if you want to stand out from the rest, what could be better than to just rule over them all while you’re at it. And if it means being looked upon as the “bad side”, so be it.
Thursday, February 26, 2009
The Tube
“Don't you wish there was a knob on the TV to turn up the intelligence? There's one marked 'Brightness,' but it doesn't work.” -Gallagher-
About 70 years ago television was something new, unique and extremely limited. A couple of black and white channels coming in and out of constant static were part of having one. There were 1 or 2 popular channels for entertainment and of course the news.
It seems that in today’s world a person who doesn’t own a TV or cable is incredibly uncommon. TV’s come in all shapes and sizes and with different screens, ranging from LCD’s to Plasma’s. They even come with remote controls so that one doesn’t have the need to get up and turn the dial. Thousands of intense colors swim in the bright screens of emanating light. And although this is all incredibly fascinating, in today’s world it is nothing out of the ordinary. People take it for granted and if anything goes wrong they curse at it because it’s not working the way it should be.
That is, in today’s world we have hundreds of channels, instead of only a few, but more in terms of quantity instead of quality. Every channel that used to have its specialty seems to have lost its glory throughout the years. For example if you think of MTV; it started off as an incredible music video broadcasting channel and ended up showing the most pointless reality TV shows one after another. And another would be Cartoon network, the friendly cartoons ranging from Tom and Jerry to the Flintstones, which now only shows strange animated TV series and even the occasional movie.
It seems as though the industry no longer cares about what they are showing, so long as they make a profit from it. Killing all the original thoughts, and filling the minds of children, teens and adults with unpleasant and useless material. All they accomplish is killing millions of brain cells of the people hoping that maybe something good will come on, even though it is practically hopeless.
Instead of focusing on what is important and what each channel should represent as its own. Sadly the world of television and all of its wonders has come down to what show earns the biggest cash and it only seems to be getting worse every day.
About 70 years ago television was something new, unique and extremely limited. A couple of black and white channels coming in and out of constant static were part of having one. There were 1 or 2 popular channels for entertainment and of course the news.
It seems that in today’s world a person who doesn’t own a TV or cable is incredibly uncommon. TV’s come in all shapes and sizes and with different screens, ranging from LCD’s to Plasma’s. They even come with remote controls so that one doesn’t have the need to get up and turn the dial. Thousands of intense colors swim in the bright screens of emanating light. And although this is all incredibly fascinating, in today’s world it is nothing out of the ordinary. People take it for granted and if anything goes wrong they curse at it because it’s not working the way it should be.
That is, in today’s world we have hundreds of channels, instead of only a few, but more in terms of quantity instead of quality. Every channel that used to have its specialty seems to have lost its glory throughout the years. For example if you think of MTV; it started off as an incredible music video broadcasting channel and ended up showing the most pointless reality TV shows one after another. And another would be Cartoon network, the friendly cartoons ranging from Tom and Jerry to the Flintstones, which now only shows strange animated TV series and even the occasional movie.
It seems as though the industry no longer cares about what they are showing, so long as they make a profit from it. Killing all the original thoughts, and filling the minds of children, teens and adults with unpleasant and useless material. All they accomplish is killing millions of brain cells of the people hoping that maybe something good will come on, even though it is practically hopeless.
Instead of focusing on what is important and what each channel should represent as its own. Sadly the world of television and all of its wonders has come down to what show earns the biggest cash and it only seems to be getting worse every day.
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